feeling afraid

Not knowing your intentions makes me feel AFRAID Not of you but of the things you can do I am suffocated by thoughts of you wanting to love, wanting to stay, wanting to hate, wanting to leave I don't know which thoughts are real but i am afraid Smothered with ideas that you will never want somebody like me someone who is scared to love scared to live scared to dream Is that all i am afraid of? NO I am afraid that i will never be able to be happy Why am i so scared of life? everyone lives a life but everyone is not afraid of life can i open up.... Feeling Afraid of the world keeps me worried that nothing will ever work coming from a place of pain Pain from the things i have seen things i have been told Pain of not knowing how to let go I wish i knew how to let go INSTEAD OF BEING AFRAID, I WISH I WASN'T AFRAID, I WISH I COULD LET GO.