Fighting Dominants
Knocking on the walls
yelling into each and every crevice
whispering, causing an itch unable to be scratched.
Trying to hold just a single thought yet
snatched yet again by the Dominants.
The Dominants say who does what, when
oh? You're feeling ok again?
Forget it.
Even sleep yields no escape
as the Dominants decide my dreams as well.
You may sleep and desire the bliss of closed eyes
but you stay awake thinking of the lies.
You'll be ok, don't worry they say.
Eventually the goal is to get through the end of the day.
The Dominants do not care what is impacted.
You want happiness? You get a whole package.
Anxiety, sadness, anger, and more,
all received without being asked for.
How much are you worth?
Do you know what you deserve?
Being told you're not as pretty as her and believing it
are that fine line.
Wishing you could change your design
Resenting that it would take time
putting in the work to look like a dime
But you're still not happy.
You don't hate yourself but look in the mirror and rate yourself.
You don't see the same as me.
Inside you're not bad but those fat rolls make you mad
They shouldn't
I know your worth
I know what you deserve
I know my worth
I know what I deserve
Once I saw myself, I saw you differently
There will always be people who don't understand
who come at you armed with words so harsh
and ignorance driving man to hurt man.
You can't see my pain as red blood
that doesn't mean you can invalidate the flood
of emotions I feel on the daily, they say
I'm going crazy.
I may have an illness but the elephant in the room
creates a stillness.
Can we talk? Will you listen?
My eyes will no longer glisten with tears
because of someone else's fears.
Our minds are not the same but we both have brains.
I'm not stupid and I'm not saying you are,
but don't have a prejudice towards me
when I have pain you cannot see.