Figuring It Out

-When we are toddlers all we know is yes, no, maybe so.

-When we’re preteens all we care about are recess, the jungle gym, and video games.

-When we’re teens all that is on our mind is lust, sex, and pimples.

-When we’re in our twenties, all that’s important is sex, alcohol, and work.

-But all I know is sex, survival, and violence.

-I don’t know which category to put myself in,

-Mentally speaking.

-Because each day a different personality escapes from inside of me.

-What was important to me then is still important to me now.

-But what’s important to me now will leave the future me in pieces.

-Priority is a scary word, going in one ear and out of the other.

-The fear of growing up isn’t really a huge issue.

-It’s just the fact that I don’t want to be the one with the responsibilities.

-But I don’t want to be treated like a child, either.

-Do I really know what I want?

-Is fire and ice something that I should be thinking about this point in my life?

-Or am I just simply confused, in all?

-I’m not Poe nor am I a toddler.

-I need to get a grip on reality.

-I need to face my own fears.

-I need to figure this out.