Filling the Void

Why do I keep on like everything is okay? With you treating me the way you do like its a typical day. In my mind my feelings are so complex of figuring out who you are, and who I am to you. I have changed so much over the years but its like you have a blind fold over your eyes, soul and heart. I am frightened you will never know the real me and who I have grown into. Its like grasping's straws trying to figure out the real reasons why you hate me now and then. It hurts that you have never cared or listened to how I felt now or growing up. I love you, I always have, but I cannot pretend that you have not healed my soul from hurt that I cannot fix. But throughout each second, minute ,hour, and day I have learned a BIG lesson that even if you know your fault you will never give a confession. But I have come to find life is never fair. I have to trust in God and other people He put in my life and they will be there for me and fill that void.