Every day, millions of us take a deep breath before stepping out that front door. We take a deep breath before walking up to our friends, talkign to new people, putting on that smile. We take a deep breath as we brace ourself for that filter - but not the one that most people have come to hate. We put on the filter that protects us. We put on that filter so we don't have to face our fears.
When I told you
that I wasn't scared
-that I hadn't been scared
for a long, long time-
you were the same.
All at once,
memories came back
of lying on the bathroom floor
trying to stop the bleeding
ribs poking thorugh my skin
"Please! I'm not scared, I'm not scared."
Because when you lose fear of death
you lose fear of life.
And I wish I had the words to tell you that.
But all I said was "Trust me, no you don't."
As if the answer was really that simple.
Which to the drunken girl,
thin and bleeding on the bathroom floor-