financial imprisonment

financially imprison from lack of financial means

living my life check to check

certainly not enough in this shaky economy

even where individuals with master degrees are scrapping to survive

as if they are living in a 3rd world country

suffocated by financial struggles

torture of not able to pay all i owe in a timely manner

i pay what i can afford, little by little

i know it's not enough, but its something

until i get back on my feet

crucify of not being able to afford items i would love to have

rent arrears piled up

letters are sent home

their patience are running thin

in prayer to never be a victim of eviction

my drive in overcoming this battle will be my conviction

during this ordeal lies a testament that defines who i am

giving me a lifetime reminder to always appreciate the value of a dollar

and i wasn't sloppy with my money

if they can only understand what i'm enduring

i been in my place 10 years

never had an issue of paying rent

unfortunate financial crisis occurred

i'm not asking for pity 

just a voice to be listen to

yes i'm still employ

i know i need to do more

the urgency to survive has sky rocketed

as high as someone smoked out on nickel and dime bags of weed

i'm been on my grind

doing something about it

in the midst of this quest, i've endure failure

the rejections

the setbacks

on the outside, i'm been strong

on the inside, i'm been crying

i will not quit

i will continue to fight

i will gain more strength, more powerful than my intense workouts in beast mode when i'm in the gym

all i ask is love and support

i ask you god to help me get through this very difficult rough time

help me persevere adversity

give me the faith to overcome my adversary

i'm outreaching for help

and it's insane because i work