To Find A Lost Child

It grabs hold of me 
like a tidal wave 
It pulls me in
distorts my image
and sucks me under
I dance on the edge 
of sanity and hope 
Knowing very well 
that the edge is 
close, knowing 
very well that 
if I were to 
fall, I would 
not be able 
to gather
myself
in any 
relatively 
ordinary 
matter 
I am lost 
and I did so 
on purpose 
To escape 
a fate once 
destined, 
but now 
I must 
escape 
from what 
I have come 
to know so dearly 
But with my fears 
I will exert enough 
energy for you to 
find me, and even 
If that is not possible 
Maybe I can find myself.