Find Me in the Infinite Dictionary

I am a face in the faceless crowd.

Part of the many faces,

Of crying children,

Of opposition and conformity,

And of homeless women and men,

And I am of those gone dead.

I am in the field of faces,

With warm, brown eyes

And yellow or dark skin.

Though I am the only brown hairs

Within the sea of black hairs.

I am literature and creativity.

I am deconstruction and comprehension.

I am the shredding of ideas,

And the patching of those ideas back together.

I am the golden, setting sun,

The bright, pink sky with puffed clouds,

Fading into a baby blue.

I am dramatic, tear jerking music.

I am deep, meaningful words.

I am the guitar, and the voice,

And the flute and the violin.

I am the feminine name Emily.

But I embrace the tomboy,

And the pretty, pink dresses too.

I am the unexpected child,

The neglected child,

I am the whatevers and caring too much.

I am the wart that worries.

I am the kick for tickle prevention.

And I am the cousins for friends.

I am half of two front teeth,

When concrete smashed my face.

I am the middle school sweet heart,

Seven years ago now.

I am the wonderful first kiss,

Filled with regret and terrible breath.

And I am the receiver of unconditional love. 

I am the fiery flame,

Of compassion and disaster,

Of calm rains and laughter,

An uncontrollable, little candle fire,

Held in the palm of my hand.

When you’ve made a mistake,

And you’re alone in the depths,

I am the mother that cries for you.

I am the father that waits for you.

When you're drunk and puking out your guts,

I am the friend that cares for you.

I am the staying up all night, worrying,

That you might disappear while - I am not looking.

I am an orange cat.

I am rice and tofu fried with sausage, onions, and tomatoes.

I am better than sex cake and macadamia nut cookies.

I am a passion so fresh.

I am the dull enriching,

Of everyday life,

But everyday memories to be treasured.

I am a college student.

I am a literature major.

I am Hmong.

But I am none of these things.

I am undefinable.

Who am I?

I am you.