find myself

the rain stops

my heart drops

the misery awakens

and it won’t stop

maybe it'll go away

if i ignore it

maybe if i use this way

it'll stay

but alas

the pain leaves and the numbness

stays.

colours envelop the outskirts

of my soul and i laugh

i laugh like i have never laughed before

somehow i feel better

but i get hit with this doubt

that this is all a façade

and i am still unhappy

so pull me out and grasp my arms

tell me i am wrong

and i might be able to

find myself