Finding Me

Jumbled up inside thoughts & emotions Who the f--- am I who even cares why??? Sanity, reality, fantasy & make believe.. What the f--- is real not knowing what to grieve This darkness that surrounds me It's so loud in my ears Shut up already!! Facing my fears!! You think you know me, That I'm to frail for the truth.. F--- you asshole, you have no couth! How can you profess to know me when myself I lost long ago.. Loving you took over B---- you had to know! My words sound so harsh to those nieave to this pain.. Judge me again mf you haven't been a player in this game. Your lies are my truth, my truth are your lies... hiding behind your mask one day will be your demise If I can hold true to me, and give up on fixing you, I will find me and began anew. But damn this shit hurts, feeling what I feel, what is me? I ask God as I kneel I feel him with me... His warmth covers me I am saved by his grace... Those negative feelings gone never to be felt again by me, positive ones took their place. You see I put a man before God and before me... For this I was lost and never could I be free Eyes wide open I have a chance to break free to live my life fully To not be afraid to find me.