Finding my Loss

I cant find love, it seems hidden behind kisses that take your breath away behind hand holding and sweet smiles I cant find love, it only consists of the first few weeks of infatuation then becomes meaningless echoes of "i love you" I cant find love, some say it grows stronger the longer you hold on it just prolongs the time it takes to become heart broken I cant find love even though i look dead into faces i search hearts desperately with tears in my eyes and what ifs on my lips I cant find love rather its security or a sense of belonging rather its at first sight or through friendship I cant find love, its like the fountain of youth no one has it but would like to claim they do I cant find love so id rather just stop looking cuz everything iv ever heard has been a lie now i dont believe it exists just false interpretations of what it is