First Love

He was my first love We started out as a pair Then became a situationship It was emotionally unfair. He knew I loved him From age 14 to 18 He didn't even love me back It still felt obscene. When he finally told me That he did love me back He didn't even try to leave his wife It was an emotional attack. How do I know he would Have never married another girl And had kids with them too If he truly loved me back. Because I used to feel Like an afterthought, A side piece, a mistress, Completely distraught. So many precious days I can never have again Because I wasted so much time On my first love and supposed best friend. Hoping for something that was never real A fantasy that was too good to be true No matter how long I wished and waited for him I should have opened my eyes too.