The First Times Never Last

Dear J,

I remember it all

The first time you held my hand

The first time we kissed

The first time we text

The first time we were alone

The first time you added those emojis on my phone

They said we were cute together

Everyone thought we would last forever

I was in it for the long run

The first time turned into the last

The kisses turned into fighting

In just two short weeks

I thought we would work things out,

But you ended things quickly

I thought we would talk

I thought we would try

But instead I fell to the floor, tears pouring from my eyes

You said we weren’t right together

So I simply agreed

How could I tell you what I felt

You seemed so set on ending things fast

I wrote you a letter, one you’ll never read

It tells you how I feel

It tells you what I think

You said we would be friends

We never even talk

You said you would never hurt me

Now I have a broken heart

I didn’t think I could care this much

I didn’t think I could fall so hard, so fast to get broken so early on

I thought you would miss me

But I don’t think you care

The first time turned into the last

Its like we were never there

The first time turned into the last

Now all we have together is the past

They say when you meet the right one

Everything goes still

No butterflies, no nervousness

Just a sense of right, a silent thrill

What they forgot to mention

Is what to do when the right one walks away

I loved you but you left

They say all good things must end

I didn’t want us to

And so the kissing turned into fighting

And the first time turned into the last.

Love always,

K.D.