FLASH YOU A SMILE (FLAWLESS)

If you asked me what made me flawless

Thinking it doesn't exist I'd flash you a smile

Almost as if to say that through all the lies

that have been told to me

All the revelations that have yet to beat on my ear drums

So many times that my eyes did rain

For intentions of being scared left alone

Heart ripped out of my chest or as you may call it

Simply in pain I pretend these things didn’t happen

But as simple as it may be let me tell you about it

1 2 and 3 I don’t recall anything

I'm guessing that’s because not much was worth recalling

Age four as far back as I can remember

Tall men broad shoulders gun in hand and in black suits

Came to take away all the nothings

There wasn't much I could do

So I sat on the floor of a dirty apartment complex 

A place not fit for a child to live let alone three

Sister and brother soon to be split

And following one would be me

I often found myself lost in a building 

Lost because I didn’t have a place to belong

Many adults came to see me

But I felt like I always did something wrong

I was the shadow of my brother

For the longest time we'd go in and out of that building

Not know for this reason that reason or another

But after weeks and months past

We found ourselves a new mother

Five I was as happy as could be

But I remember kids looking us

White mother black son the puzzle pieces didn’t fit

I tried to ignore the looks they gave me

But my brain wouldn't let me forget

Thinking and thinking something had to be off

I mean games, toys, parks, Disneyland

My mom seemed to be so happy

And everything happening was so good

I was blinded by the joy

As a child I misunderstood

At age six these things almost didn't matter

My mother was still happy

But it seemed to be in a different way

At the time I was too young to notice

That her hair had gone away

Night after night I wasn't sure why we  would all pray

My mother was given a second chance

It wasn't until years after did I know what this meant

So if you took all these misfortunes and fortunes

That happened in six years and multiplied by nearly three

You'd come up with a very long

But relatively short compared life

Nevertheless a story

One of kind, different, peculiar, divergent, unique

All describing what people have been through

But I wont just say your truly

Because I know everybody struggles

But all that matters is that at the end

of every day, every journey, every mile

A piece of happiness appears on my face

And I always flash that same smile

I am FLAWLESS.