Food

I don't have a healthy relationship with food. I know I don't. Sometimes I don't eat. Sometimes I eat too much. But either way, I hate myself for it. So I limit myself, Don't eat this, Only eat that. Then break my own rules. I don't have a healthy relationship with food. I know I don't. It's abusive, It's brutal. It reduces me to tears. It may sound extreme, But it happens. I don't have a healthy relationship with food. I know I don't. But I have no idea how to fix it. And I'm too scared to ask anyone for help.