a forbidden cycle

all in all

I dont try to be negative

my intentions are pure

with a traumatic past

why ?

why does the sadness comfort me ?

I expect the worst

but hope for the best

I cry silently

hoping they are blind to my emotions

but wishing they notice the whine

why ?

why does the happiness feel unusual 

I desire it

but lose the lust when i have it

a forbidden cycle .