Forgiveness

Constant fights I remember them well Hiding behind my door, listening to the sound of painful emotions I sat there and cried, afraid to leave, to even move When i was that age, it was good enough for you To yell, and to berate No one could ever seem to relate That pain kept me hidden, and to everyone else I was fine But they never saw the real me Pff, neither did I As father and son, we never stood a chance You found peace in drugs, I found it alone in my room But now you are alone, afraid, and dying On a death bed of sorts with only so much time left Your bodies reaction to the crime of unhealthiness has left you sick and legless A cruel fate, to a man who never even understood himself The thing is, I forgive you We are a product of circumstances We can choose to rise above, or like you, fall below You never had a chance Not one single goal You wanted the easy way out, and you may yet have that But I wanted more What you showed me was how not to live What you taught me was how to strive for greatness Im sad that you will die alone in your room pushing those away whom just wanted to help Your drugs keep you comfort but no human ever can I guess what I am saying is, Farewell Dad. Its time to move on, and i have found meaning I will change the world And in return, know you fathered someone great Rest in peace and with love in your final days.