Forgiveness

From swing sets and slides To broken hearts and teary eyes From riding bikes and wishing we were older To realising it’s not as warm as we think It’s colder. When my parents first split I blamed myself as if I could control others actions I was just a kid but blaming my myself became a habit Through elementary and middle school I remember The first time I ever wished that I wasn’t here. I lost most of my childhood and teen years to Mental illness To self harm To starving myself Missed out on things i can never get back But oh I wish I could give myself some slack I sometimes wish I hadn’t fallen A victim to my own mind I can think back on my hospital stays And how i wanted to change I worked hard to get where I am I used to think I wouldn’t make it to my 18th birthday People sometimes take for granted What it feels like to know you're secure To know that you're wanted But growing up meant realising It’s not all bad and I can’t change the past It’s about forgiveness Even if that means forgiving Myself