Forgotten Child

Hopelessly I gaze in wonder Listening to the wailing thunder Watching the rain fly and flutter Soft against the window pane Thinking of places I've resided Secluded memories I've tried to hide And many and evening I've sat alone And watched a violent fire rage Voluntarily she used to sit By my side in the everlasting dim Pleasing me with infinite tales of simpler times, troubling still I wait her call, the call of my mother Beckoning me like no other To save me from these sinful thoughts To call from a separate corridor But I shall never heed these calls again, I know of this and nothing more Enraged, enlightened, I'm still alone Awaiting the children of my own My heart beating like a metronome Against my cold, abandoned chest I dream of the past before she left me A time when I would rather let be All of the questions and every memory Wearing holes into my mind Until at last I set them free I try so hard to set my mind free To bring myself at peace with the secrets, so dark, dark and deep Answers I'll never have.