Free in a Cage of Dreams

Last night I had a nightmare that silver glittery statues were trying to dance

Paralyzed and so was I

We sunk into the floorboard

I have no idea what I’m doing but today my heart feels heavier

You take me to water

Last time it was a mirage

This time I don’t lean forward

I know better than to trust what’s not moving

I watch myself feed my skepticism with my own insecurities

I watch myself choose isolation over reminders of responsibility

I watch myself stop myself from making mistakes

I found the mistake

The dancing glittery statues start to crumble to ash

The floor pulls back fast

I fall through the cracks

Now I know fear can’t kill what’s moving

I’ll always choose heartbreak over boring

I accept pain in the form of love and loss, but not longing

because that’s what it means to be vulnerable

and that’s what it means to be free in a cage

A cage

I built from the same

Rocks I found in the pond with the

Water from the mirage and the

Statues haunting my sleep

Now I’m free in a cage of dreams