Friend or Foe

When I open my mouth,

feelings,moods, and tears flow out

but nothing is ever heard.

I choose to stay quiet;

the background shading me out

as a blur of unnecessary and nonexistence.

When I express myself,

it is more meaningful to people

I've never even met.

Maybe because they choose to listen instead of speak

and when they do, they do so with wisdom.

they don't see you or your existence

so they can't judge

they can't laugh

they can't mock

forced to merge with your perspective

because you are the only perspective

no other perspective is given to the anonymous to consider

they arn't a part of your life 

they are only exposed to these text

the opposition that was in your life is non-existence

and they are only exposed to what your mind thinks

and what your mind thinks is always correct.

your friends are your enemy

you don't know them

they can lie.

you cannot see into their minds

nor into their souls

because when there is good, there is evil

when there is right, there will always be a wrong

otherwise if the opposition does not exist, 

how you can you expect your side; the right side, to be relevant?

why live in unknown and fear of what they store in their minds

thinking whether it is for or against your thinking

when you have something that is completely nuetral?

the anonymous user that reads the text

knows nothing of your existence

they either hate or love

they show whether they hate or love

because they have nothing to lose

because they are protected behind their screens

because they are anonymous 

they actually listen to what you have to say

they understand you because they are only exposed

to your point of view

to your side of the story

is it not ironic that your best friend

the person you most trust

is the stranger, the anonymous that your parents told you not to trust?

is it not ironic that the people you consider friends

can harm you because you let them into your life

not knowing whether they are friend or foe?

we live in the unknown, when we know more

we gain knowledge of more unknown 

the more I learn, the more I realize how much I don't know-Albert Einstein

life is filled with paradoxes, contraditions, and unknown entities

it is perhaps how religion is formed

religion is based on faith

faith is trusting even though you live in the fear of the unknown

you put faith into your friends thinking they will help you

you make yourself believe that they will be there for you

they are your friends

but in reality you don't know whether they will betray you or not

you don't know if they are really thinking that way

and you don't know whether if they are friend or foe

religion, in a way is order

it is something placed in this world whether you believe in it's existence or not

it is to maintain balance

to restore peace in a sense

but at the same time create conflict

create hate and anger

something that was meant to create order is 

something that destroys in second handedly

without order there would be chaos in this world

because human beings a truly selfish 

when one's true self is revealed, it is ugly never beautiful

because there is not a single person that is truly perfect

all of us have sin stained upon us

we fight to gain benefits

even if it means harm towards others

the only real perfect being is "God"

but, then again, you have to put faith into God don't you?

you have to trust in something that you do not even know of it's existence

over the whole internet, advertisings, make-up, false information

looks gorgeous with their pretty colours and big bolded text

all to attract you

all to trap you

ALL

FUCKING

LIES

therefore order is placed to keep one in their false sanity

all the other underhanded dirty unseen things are kept away from us

but someone has to keep them away from us

the government does

the one that enforces the order

is the one that lies to us

:)

another example of order causing chaos unknowingly to keep our false sanity 

or to harm us secretly

or perhaps it is actually trying to help us?

you will never know

put faith into it perhaps?

or rebel against it?

then again, do you have a choice?

is the military here to protect us? or protect the governement

are rioters the correct view? or the government?

is your friend your actual friend or foe?

you won't ever know, for as you know, the more you do not know

or perhaps you do? but it is hidden from your so called friend

so i want to thank you anonymous user

for saying that I am a:

faggot

gay

stupid

ugly

dumb

fat

useless

because it is better than being called:

smart

beautiful

charismatic

hot

amazing

genius

because you are being honest

you don't know me

you only see my view

not other views

and you are my 

BEST FRIEND <3

in this bittersweet, disgustingly beautiful, contradictory world

thank you for being there!