Friends
What do you think of at night
Is it what could have been
The love you thought you shared
Or is it the loneliness that was left inside
That dreadful day she left
Do you dream of rainbows
Maybe butterflies
Or do you dream of knives
And tears stream down
When you look in the mirror
Do you see the underlying guilt
Maybe the bags from lack of sleep
Or maybe just maybe you see what could be
The sad part is you wouldn’t change it for the world
It’s the only time you felt alive
She taught you there was good in the world
She showed you Our Savior
So does your heart sink when you think of her
Do you get nauseous of the thought of her with someone else
Maybe that’s a good thing
It proves you still care
She may not believe you could love her
She may not believe you will stay
But to prove it you never walk away
You always dream of a better day
Because without her you’d be nothing
The dreams get brighter
The memories fade
Maybe she’ll finally forgive you
You have stood by her side while she wallowed and cried
Both your hearts broke down
Then she said that dreadful thing
You will never date again
Everything crumbled down
You lost the only person you had left
She walked out of your life
And now you’re just friends
Three days later she has a boy
She talks about him like the stars in the sky
She never knew it hurt you to speak of him
You acted like it was all okay
Like you are happy she is with him
But in reality it kills you inside
You still think you have a chance
She’ll start to feel the way you do
She will talk about you the way she talks of him
But this is all a dream
He is hers and she is his
That’s all it will ever be
Friends