Full of Regrets

Sitting here crying 

While I write this

Wishing I never let her

Cause right now

I feel like dying

The tears are streaming

Down my face

My head is spinning

Thoughts all over the place

Just the thought

Of you hating me

Makes it impossible

For me to breathe

I'm going to be honest

I hate the person

I am slowly turning out to be

I completely understand 

If you hate me

I would too

And I get it

If you want

Nothing to do with me

If you never 

Want to talk to me again

I don't blame you

But whats hurts me the most

Is knowing

I lost one of my 

Closest friends