Fullfilment

I apologize for not being who I used to be, I guess I was under the impression that I was in love but i promise there won’t be anymore using me. You know what’s crazy? I used to love you like there were two of me And I can’t even be upset because I’m proud of what such beautiful flower I grew to be I’ve learn that in order for me to grow, I have to stop watering dead situations. Even though I may seem sad inside, that pain is only temporary, one day i’ll be glad it died And satisfied knowing that it did. So what if nobody understands me. The only thing that matter is if I learned to light my own candle, in other words find what makes me happy. So, even when times get dark, I could always see things on the brighter end because I’ve found that light within. Don’t let life break you because you’ll lose your sense of happiness and love and how to love you now? You have to create your own happiness because happiness reliant on someone other than you is only temporarily there. It’s a cold world out here. Fiana Elizabeth, I can understand that nobody wants to be alone and it’s human nature to be such passionate, but when someone continues to break you over and over, why do you continue to accept them back again? Why are you willing to give up a few extra months in exchange for your happiness? Maybe you are also afraid of being alone and that’s the only thing that’s holding you back. I know it bothers you and on the inside it may feel like when birds cry. Sometimes it is okay to let go and let the love die. To be honest, some nights I sit in my room and cry myself to sleep and cross my fingers, trying not to let these suicidal thoughts get the best of me because everybody in my life seemed to have made a complete mess of me. So I really don’t believe I have much left in me. Yes, trust me I know that God is only testing me, but on some days I still sit here in that deep depression. Maybe I haven’t learned the first time so now I have to repeat the whole lesson. Everything in life comes in a deeper message . In this world there is no escape, the only escape is within me. I have to dig deep down to find that one thing that makes me happy. Find that thing that fulfills me. Life is all about self fulfillment because there is nobody else that can fill your cup. Love is what blinds us. The sad thing about it is those that say they love us, show us different through their actions. Separate yourself from all negativity and work on you.