Get worse to get better
I cried in the shower
I sat on my knees
and sobbed
because I did not have the energy to stand
I arrived at the crisis center at 12:30
I was not admitted until it was dark outside
And my dad had to leave
and I cried
I couldn't stop the tears
It was the longest seven days
I have ever known
and all I wanted was my family
But I learned things
That you can't ignore your problems
That other girls thought they were ugly
That you have nothing to prove
Every day there hurt
and every day I wanted to go home
But every day there healed
And every girl there was my family
Being there was the worst time in my entire life
But it may be the only reason I can stand in the shower again
But it may be the only reason I can smile again
But it may be the only reason that I am still here and am remembering how to want to be alive
It got worse
But
Oh my god
It's finally better