The Girl I Once Was

A light  

Stolen away from the unknown 

Taken from sight and tucked away in the darkness 

Never to be seen again 

Creating an emptiness that flows through my veins 

That clouds my mind and floods my thoughts 

A smile 

Replaced by nothing more than a blank expression 

A simple line that forgot its ability to curve

It radiates the sunken expression of pain and suffering 

Screaming, yet immobile, to be replaced by what it once was 

These thoughts that have clouded my judgement 

Remind of the memories 

Of the girl I once was

A glance 

Once having so much meaning 

Yet now meaningless 

As if a pair of eyes is simply just moving 

And there’s nothing hidden behind that sudden glare 

Mechanically having turned to one side with no intention

Is there really nothing there?

A thought 

What once was filled with rays of something grand 

Has now been taken over my a darkness so strong 

Repeating over and over until it’s playing like a broken record 

A thought that can slice right into a heart 

And pierce even the purest souls 

What was once used for a different purpose 

Has now come back to haunt me 

Every second 

Of every day 

Unlike the girl I once was 

Day by day I reminisce 

Searching and scanning of answers 

Of where exactly I went wrong 

How could such a light suddenly be put out so fast?

How could my own mind turn on my like that?

These questions are those that keep me up at night 

Suddenly I hate sleep 

But not nearly as much as I hate the girl staring back in the mirror

Or the thought of going back to the girl I once was