Go
My brain is like a broken record
Keeping track
Of everyone I’ve ever met
Always playing back
I sob at night
An ineffective recourse
It doesn’t matter to them at all
Which only makes it worse
Cause when you leave
I’ll still be here
Remembering you
Whether or not you’re near
And god I’ll miss you
And god I’ll worry
It’s agony,
So if you visit please hurry
Don’t want to die
But you’re killing me
Don’t want to live
Without you near me
So if you go
Just please remember that
If you leave, I’ll still be here
With my welcome mat
For loved ones who will never
Come back
For friends I know that
Have gone off track
And I’m sorry that
I’ve trapped you here
It must be stifling
To be held so dear
But if you leave
I’ll break like glass
Shattered and gone
So don’t slip from my fingers like gas
I’m sorry but
You can’t leave me here
Alone and without your
Voice to hear
My love has tied you
Up in chains
I’m so so sorry
But the leaving pains
Me so badly
I can’t let go
So if you decide to leave
Please know
The broken nights
Won’t end
Just cause someone
Has left again
You don’t make it worse
You make it better
And damn all of those
Who say just write letters
Cause they don’t know
How much it hurts
And they don’t know
The blood that will come in spurts
If too many
People leave
I’ll fall apart
And make myself bleed
Onto the hardwood
Onto the ground
Into the woods
Where I won’t be found
Damn you all
For leaving me here
Broken, a shell,
Damn your magic trick— “disappear!”
I will lie here
And hope you don’t go
Cause I might freeze
Out here in the snow
That’s starting to fall
Upon your departure
I’ll sacrifice my happiness for yours
Your friendly neighborhood martyr
To take all your hits
And to shield you from pain
I love you but
Is all you want from me gain?
I’m so sorry
But I’m broken too
I am human
And I bleed just like you
And if I stay here
For much longer
I might just die
And I won’t rise stronger
Cause I’m not like you
With your infallible armor
I am weak
You the cruelest archer
I can’t believe this
I love you all!
God damn it
Why’d you have to make me fall
So far, so deep
Into the pit
I’m afraid that I
Cannot climb out of it