Go

My brain is like a broken record

Keeping track

Of everyone I’ve ever met

Always playing back

I sob at night

An ineffective recourse 

It doesn’t matter to them at all

Which only makes it worse

Cause when you leave 

I’ll still be here

Remembering you

Whether or not you’re near

And god I’ll miss you

And god I’ll worry

It’s agony,

So if you visit please hurry

Don’t want to die

But you’re killing me

Don’t want to live

Without you near me

So if you go

Just please remember that

If you leave, I’ll still be here

With my welcome mat

For loved ones who will never

Come back

For friends I know that

Have gone off track

And I’m sorry that 

I’ve trapped you here

It must be stifling

To be held so dear

But if you leave

I’ll break like glass

Shattered and gone

So don’t slip from my fingers like gas

I’m sorry but

You can’t leave me here

Alone and without your

Voice to hear 

My love has tied you 

Up in chains

I’m so so sorry

But the leaving pains

Me so badly 

I can’t let go

So if you decide to leave

Please know

The broken nights 

Won’t end

Just cause someone

Has left again

You don’t make it worse

You make it better

And damn all of those

Who say just write letters

Cause they don’t know

How much it hurts

And they don’t know

The blood that will come in spurts

If too many 

People leave

I’ll fall apart

And make myself bleed

Onto the hardwood

Onto the ground

Into the woods

Where I won’t be found

Damn you all

For leaving me here

Broken, a shell,

Damn your magic trick— “disappear!”

I will lie here

And hope you don’t go

Cause I might freeze 

Out here in the snow

That’s starting to fall

Upon your departure

I’ll sacrifice my happiness for yours

Your friendly neighborhood martyr

To take all your hits

And to shield you from pain

I love you but

Is all you want from me gain?

I’m so sorry 

But I’m broken too

I am human 

And I bleed just like you

And if I stay here

For much longer

I might just die

And I won’t rise stronger

Cause I’m not like you

With your infallible armor

I am weak

You the cruelest archer

I can’t believe this

I love you all!

God damn it

Why’d you have to make me fall

So far, so deep

Into the pit

I’m afraid that I

Cannot climb out of it