Gone

I wonder if the day will ever come when I won't get that feeling out of nowhere that makes me feel what it felt like when I realized he was gone. Like someone whispered it in my ear for the first time. That incredibly deep feeling of shock and disbelief. That feeling that no words can explain. The feeling that you can not breathe followed by the feeling that you don't ever want to again. You wonder what brought it on this time. Because if you knew you would remember to never let it happen again.