Gone for now

Because I love you I can't think, I can't do my work, I can't function.

You left me for us and I understand that but the pain of not having you hurts so much. Everyone is telling me to keep going on with my life but how can I when I know I won't get to see or talk to you for a while. You come back in December but these past few months have been so lonely and hard. You are my oxygen... every day I have to find the breath to keep going. I suffocate myself in things like working out, going to places we used to visit, listening to songs you showed me.... but none of them can fill this longing heart with the oxygen and blood it needs.  I used to think you had a place in my heart but that's not the case here, you took all of it with you and left me nothing to hold on to. I realize now thats why I can't function, you took my heart and now I feel like I dont have a purpose, I feel like I don't have anything. I need you to make it all ok, I need you to help me but you left. YOU LEFT ME!! My parents told me its as if you are my drug and i'm addicted to you. I kept saying it wasn't true but maybe it is... Maybe I love you too much that youre affecting every part of me. People tell me God is the answer to moving on but hes already taken so manypeople from me that I can barely trust him either. I dont want to trust him. I can only trust Don... Because I love you, you're affecting every part of me, You're slowly squeezing my heart day by day. My tears fall quicker and quicker as you squeeze. I'm mad at you for leaving me all alone but its only because I love you so much...