Gone through these.

I find myself alone every time everyday Am I thinking so much I get hurt easily but it’s been a many weeks that I am going through something I feel surrounded with people hate me so much just because sometimes I get arrogant but I get back to normal easily I feel sorry the arrogance which I did a min before . But they won’t understand . Today it’s been months with them and  I get back a big hatred got to hear from my closed once that they hate me a lot. I really don’t know how to show a fake smile even u don’t like that person and even can’t pretend like they do with me i just need peace an stay alone and enjoy my peace for a year by myself and me who is getting syco everyday thinking about same thing and hating myself I will start my meditation too to find ☮️