Good Bad Romance (with respect to Lady Gaga)

You've never stopped being my soul mate For 40 years . As corny as that sounds And you would laugh at me if I said it. But the butterflies never quit in my stomach, Memories of you pop in and out of my head Once a day, Twice a day Sometimes all day long And our last meeting 4 years ago was magical You kissed me like I never knew what a kiss was You're a blistering racist, bigot and a narcissistic Trumper You were hard on me, I was hard on you back We argued We got over it. You kept calling, texting, causing feelings to bubble up again Is this a toxic relationship? Yes Is this an all consuming bad romance? Yes. But my stupid fucking heart will not let go of Your deep  sexy voice That causes me to lose my sense of balance And good judgement Your arms around me felt like home. Your command to tell you what I'm wearing   ( a smile was the correct response) made me forget my own name Even if you are 90 anď wheelchair bound, I'd still love you. ( wow ) You worshipped me when we were young. I still love you now beyond reason If you called and said, "I need you" I'd drop everything and run Knowing full well my brain is not involved in the conversation I've told myself to stop loving you But it's like asking a tree not to change its leaves. I've picked up the phone and texted you zillions of times But never sent it Because we are not meant to be. You are you and not mine to have.. But I have experienced deep love, A childlike giddiness Reserved for rockstars. I'm glad I did not miss it.