Goodbye

I didn’t mean to leave so soon,

I’m sorry I didn’t say anything before,

I couldn’t take the pain,

I found a way out so I took my chance,

I was wrong

I can’t fix what I did,

A place I can call home has disappeared,

Nothing seems right anymore,

I don’t know what caused this blockage in my life,

I don’t know how to react,

I want everything how it was before,

Everything hurts,

When will I ever be able to find a home,

It’s hard to keep my feet moving,

Can’t ever be happy anymore,

Don’t even know how to get of bed and get ready for the day

Can’t find a happy place,

Always stuck in a horror,

I look around me,

Everyone seems so happy, things left on a bad note,

Whereas nothing is fine,

Slowly dying inside,

Just fading,

Depression keeping me in a whirl,

My mind is like a blizzard,

I cannot explain this pain,

Cannot explain the fake “I love yous”,

Cannot explain how messed up I had become,

No one can save me,

There is nothing to save,

The pain only gets worse,

The pain growing only getting worse,

Soon my time will come,

These dreams of being me,

These places causing bad memories,

Seeing you walk with your head held high,

How can you walk like that?

After all the pain that you had cause you still smile,

You burnt a hole in my heart,

Left these marks,

Left this aching pain,

Out of all people why was it you,

All you could throw at me was a sorry,

And I’m out here acting bad and big,

But inside I’m little,

Crying out for help,

I act all tough,

But I’m scared,

Nothing can explain the way that I felt, that I feel,

Fought every ounce to keep the tears in,

Nothing has ever made me feel so dead,

But now that feeling is coming back with him,

I just hope the next girl who walks in both of your paths is prepared for pain,

I run for this pain,

I hide in the dark,

Keeping quiet so the monsters can’t find me,

But they still come,

Can’t look at you,

Can’t look at anyone the way I did you

But somehow you still crawl in my mind,He just caused a breakage in my life,

I see your new girl, and it reminds me of when I had you,

I just wish I never missed you so much,

I see you all over these girls,

Them all over you,

I see your text,

It gives me butterflies,

I wish they’d go away,

Just disappear and make the numb feeling go away