Goodbye Forevermore

Oh where oh where do I even start? Behind my smile is a frown so large and eyes so heavy that even their tears are too much for the ocean to hold. Behind my courage is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh I am falling apart. Look closely and you will see the girl that stands before you is not me. She is a mere shadow of what used to be. A page in a history book that no longer exists. She went down fighting however She lost the war when she slit her wrists. She tried so hard but no one cared to see the delicate position she was in. She awakes daily to fight the demons that attack her mind, body, and soul but having no one to talk to and no where to go what else was to be expected? Her mind constantly unrested. Thoughts doing flips inside of her mind no time to unwind or just let thoughts die. Racing and racing they never stop. STOP she shouts get out of my head i just want to be normal again. No one seemed to love or care for her. No “family” no “friends”

 

Everyone looked upon her with such disgust never once giving her the chance to open up. Instead they judged her and looked down on her. “No one believes anything you say when they have already determined that your crazy” or could it possibly just be that todays health care systems are lazy? No one takes the time to get to the root of the problem instead they throw some medicine your way and send you about your day. Empathy can no longer be found. My only wish is that I was dead in the ground. Numb, to never feel again. Im beyond tired and have lost all hope. Im giving up I cant take anymore so this is my goodbye letter to you from me. I have ended your ”fat” ”ugly” ”stupid” “dissapointment”, “embarrassment”, and miserable unhappy life you live because of me so now you can live happily forever without the biggest problem you seemed to have. I hope your happy and I wish you the best. Life is a crazy test for everyone. I have failed... goodbye forevermore