Goodbye love

i remember when i was in my early 20's "happily in relationship "this guy was my everything.... he was my king and i was his queen nights passsed, days passed, months and then things started falling apart.... it was painful at the same time it was soo awesome you know why..... which girl doesn't want to be known as single..... he asked me for a kiss and..... how was your first kiss??? others terrible ikr... i did not want to be seen as a fool in this relation-ship...what do you do when your expectations don't rhyme??? quite!!!!!!! i thouhgt relationships were as fun as we see in soap operas but not until i experienced it wth my African man that's when i got the reality of things..... i laid down my hormones for him just because i did not want to be hurt any longer..... if you get a person you compatible thats when you get real and true love.... am i hurt yes am i hurt no because i needed him i fantasized how we could have a nice life how we could travel the world how we could have our own empire but......was my hallucination lying to me??was i the inactive partner?? did trade him with anything??? i loved him...he put my heart in jar and wrapped it never to remember me again i was a fool i waited for him to come back but poor me no signs,his image, his voice and scent kept fading away in my mind....... it was hard watching him doing sooo fine in social media..... i forgot him, i forgot us...... good bye love but why was it this way???