A Grand Search for Love

Always unsure of what to feel

always doubting it'd be real

I found myself empty

where I always had plenty

where I could have the moon

in any room

and the world could speak to me of wisdom

in its kingdom

by the sea

I wanted to see

see the colors of the heavens

where many proclaimed it'd not be easily given

I wanted to know about such emotion

everyone dared try and was left in the ocean

an ocean of tears, the ones I could not understand

yet desired, yet had at hand

the things I could not touch

yet had at reach

of my heartbeats

every beat, looking for a street

where I could find the neighbor named Love

the one that was carved in my gloves

in which where the gift of the present

the present of which I thought unpleasant

I saw you

the only creature that lived in my shoes

that knew what it felt like to be in solitude

that was among the multitude

but couldn't notice what beauty

stood in its duty

to acknowledge the true meaning of those four letters

where I would reason the better

the better in what it truly was

because

I desperately searched for something that was part of me

part of my own flesh and blood, the family tree

how much I have come to cherish

what has now perished

and left me again how I was before

and even worse than foretold

that I could never have such happiness no more

that I am on the floor

begging for you to take my soul

to take control

of what was yours long ago

before you go

my whole

my soul

my loving grandmother

I wish for us to once again be with one another