Grant’s Wednesday
Wednesday’s have always been my favorite
It isn’t the beginning or the end of the week
Wednesday’s seem to come at just the right time
Regardless of what’s happening I always rely on Wednesday’s
I used to think I was born on Wednesday
But I was born on a Thursday
There is nothing wrong with Thursday
It just isn’t as structured as a Wednesday
Thursday’s feel like out of body experiences
They feel cold and dirty
It’s like Thursdays aren’t supposed to be in the calendar
Or maybe I just feel this way because I was born on Thursday
I started liking grant on a Wednesday
Maybe one of the weirdest Wednesdays of my life
I don’t exactly remember what happened
One day he was a friend and the other he was some sort of wanderer through my emotions
He didn’t change them, but when I was with him I became more aware of my emotions
Many people think he’s plain
As I’ve come to learn I’m attracted to bland people
I find bland people interesting because no one bothers to talk to them
All information about them is unknown and you have to do a lot of digging to find the fun parts
I liked exploring his life
It soothed me
And it distracted me from my depression
Although there were interesting parts to him
I soon experienced the bad parts
Nothing too bad but a distance
I’ve felt this distance all my life
I got it from my half sister when she didn’t like my mom or me
I got it from my dad when he suggested anti depressants
I got it from my friends when my sister committed suicide
I’ve always been scared of distance
He wanted to be distant from anything related to me
I don’t know why he had a sudden change
Maybe I will never know
But what I do know is this is when I finally realized this is how life is
This was apart of me growing up
Some people will be there
And just when you need them the most
They will disappear