Greif

The water is calm at first

Quiet against the sandy shore

Then the waves of reality grasp your ankles

The strong relentless wave of sadness pulls me in

Why do I feel so alone?

Now knee deep in water I trudge towards shore

Pushing just to feel okay

Pushing to accept that they're gone

Once I thought I was back to the shallow end

The tide drags me back in for more

Can no one see me struggling not knowing how to float?

This time shoulder length deep, seaweed grasping my feet

Choking on tears, gagging on the taste of salt not knowing if it's my tears

Or just the water swallowing me whole

Don't tell me you understand

Tsunami of emotions

Typhoon of memories

Someone please help me stay afloat

Don't tell me to just get over it

I'm paddling to what I think is shore

The water is rising it's almost past my eyelids

Hoping, wishing, praying to feel like myself again

I know you're just trying to help

I know you may not know what to say

I know it may seem like there's oceans between us

I know it may take awhile until I seem like myself again

Just please don't  let me drown until then