Grief inexplicable

The loss feels unbearable The anger is never ending The pain is strong The relentless traumatic memories. The hurt rendered me helpless The damage was done The damage is permanent The abuse was relentless. You never protected me You never loved me You caused so much damage But I am so angryvand sad all at once. I loved you because you were My mom,you gave me life I took care of you But you never was there for me. I have two positive memories Was trying to make more memories With you and your grandson Then you died. Your death was my worst moment I miss you I have mixed feelings on your death But I still loved you Even though you never loved me.