Grown

Grown.

A job and a dog and a

Home of your own

Is what I thought of

I knew I was strong

But all the ways I was wrong

Were never so clear

Until I lost

You think service is worthless

Until you’ve worked for it

The reason you exist

It’s up to you to determine it

The first time I fought and lost

I remembered the man

Who told me “life is just a fight until you understand”

Yeah,

I start to think of all the things I took advantage of

All the cities I could have built

If I thought I was good enough

I saw that all my cash was really liquid when it comes to it

How fast it flows through my hands

How fast the hunger really hits

All the things you think you wanted until the work shows you the way

Ten dollars for a coffee, damn that’s my hour’s pay

Broken budgets and sleepless nights really teach you to appreciate

The little things, like

Putting kale in my fridge and actually eating it

Realizing I’m not invincible

And I’m to old to keep faking it

The first wrinkles on my forehead,

Maybe they’re just battle scars

Reminding me the clock is ticking

And that I’ve come so far

The first time I worked in a nursing home

I came to be grateful for

My freedom, mobility, agility

All the things I have, but could not afford

Now I know that nothing’s really meaningless

I give my life meaning,  it’s up to me to keep feeding it 

My flow, my glow

It’s all under my control

What does it mean to be grown? 

I think I finally know 

Grown 

With a loan

A car and a house 

And a life I don't 

Own 

Life will never be perfect. 

My goal? 

Every year, grow wiser

Every day, glow brighter