Growth

I watched you ball me up like a piece of paper and discard me as if I were disposable 

Boy did that hurt my inner core 

Many nights of tears wondering why I’m so unlovable 

leave it up to you, I’m just another whore 

So I vow to not allow the next man to dump in me a bed of lies 

see you hyped my inner mind

gassing me to feel the deeper crevice in  between my thighs 

once all was felt

peace sign went up and just like that you dipped 

asking spirit why were these the cards I was dealt

spirit replied “ child you’re all mine”

“the love you are seeking is right in front of you”

“You’ll find it if you just take a look inside”

“ I created you child, please know that I am the divine”

“The enemy will try to tear you down and keep you stagnant “

“Ascend my child, don’t let this hinder you”

“All of my children have to go through something in order to build them”

“Release release release as this is not an entrapment”

“ I need you to be whom I created to you to be”

You know what you’re right father

I apologize for not seeing the inner beauty within all along

No longer will I give man the satisfaction to even bother 

Not any need for revenge

because every dog has its day 

enjoy your lovely binge 

as you know all things must come to an end

I’m a child of God

and boy oh boy my god does not play

this was everything I needed 

thank you for everything I now know

Everyday I step closer into my divine feminine 

I am so lovable

This is what you call growth.