The Guy

I wish just once I could be the guy, you know?

I wish I could be the guy who’s confident enough to care how people feel and not what they think 

The guy who is emotional because he’s human and not suppressed because of who man is

The guy who looks at strangers as friends he hasn’t yet met 

And who's greatest fear is being afraid rather than his fears themselves

Who climbs higher by never looking down

The guy who always does the right thing even when it’s hard 

And not just how hard is spoken of after it’s over like it was easy

But when it’s truly hard

And the moment blurs the line between right and wrong

And shows you who you are and who you truly want to be

I wish I could be the guy who knows who he is in that moment

And at the very least I want to be the guy who swings and misses because at least he swung

At least he took his shot and he’s going to look back on life and know that he lived 

Because how many of us actually get to be alive before we die

But I’m just not him

I want to be so badly 

And at times it holds enough pressure to make diamonds and maybe that’s why it’s so hard

But I look through a mirror that shows a reflection sharper than the man who holds it

And I look through the tinted lenses of glasses that polarize a split conscience

A conscience that turns to darkness when shade is present 

And I see a shadow of that guy

Made worse when I shine my brightest 

Yet still fall short

Trailing behind a hero I’ll never hope to catch

Who captures flashes of potential

Framing a picture of the guy i could never be