Happiness

I loved you

And you gave me so much I didn't know what to do

You gave me not one, not two, but three kisses before you left me when you had to go

You paid for my meals even when I didn't want you to

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Eventually I stopped eating when we went out

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You gave me smiles and laughter , and the sweet warmth of protection in every hug and touch of your embrace

What was I to do that day?

I had to show you how much I loved you, how much I trusted you, how much faith  put in us

 I wasn't ready but I gave my body to you

And as much as it hurt me

Pleasure flew  through you

Shocked and eased your nerves a you came to a release of guilty pleasure

And for me just a tender backside

but what was I supposed to do?

I loved you

But then to find out that you didn't even love me no where close to the same

If  I could trade all those things that you gave me for the love I so dearly desired; I would

A blink of the eye, or single heart beat couldn't compare to how instant it would occur

How dumb of me,I suppose we had never truly met.

I just thought you would be my happiness.

Who are you?