Happiness

Struggle day after day. What will destroy me today.  my destroysive brain Or my dream of tommorrow Why should I even care.  happiness is it even there Or am I caught up in the want The want of happiness So far out of reach If only I was strong enough To guided us there. Up so high now I can almost see it The gleem of happiness Am I really almost there   The walls start to cave now And I fall back down. Was I close to happiness Was I close to the end. The end of all this mess The mess of my life The night has come. Tears have set in now Time for sleep Such a pain full thing. The bringer of tommorrow The creater of problems Will I make it threw tommorrow Will I find happiness in a new day Will I be better off? Only tommorrow know. My first poem ever any advice?