Happy

You know those words

That everyone knows

That whisper in the minds of strangers

Confronting their need to speak and be heard

Ordering them to find companions

I wish I knew those words

I wish they would fall off my lips 

In tones of encouragement and happiness

And not the bitterness that my own mind soaks in

Because these shows say 

Be yourself

Without taking into consideration

What I've done

And who I am

That when I am in the shadows

My soul aches for someone to sit right down next to me

And make the world a little brighter

I come out only if there's a beam of light shining on the edge of my darkness

Stressing if there's more

Crying when there is less

So if I could change 

Really change

Not shove a part of me in a closet

My head would rise higher

My smile would be wider

When a joke escapes you

I don't stare for awhile

But laugh right away

I would be

Compassionate

Amazing

Talented

Lovable

Smart

Kind

Exciting

Loving

So again I say

If I could change

I would be happier