Hard Is All I Know

I don't know what to do This blade ain't workin' for me Alcohol only makes it worse I'm poppin' these pills like candy I feel so unwanted I am so lost I feel so forgotten Asphalt never looked so soft Trying to find the light But all I see is darkness Can't seem to turn forward But backwards I go, I'm hopeless There's the ledge Here I am Take care everyone I'm doing this 'cause I can Close my eyes Mesmerize Like I'm falling onto pillows Funny, 'cause hard is all I know Never experienced softness A rocks my pillow, road's my bed No such thing as sweet dreams For me, it's nightmare on elm street It's a tough road alright It hurts every time I go I've tried to find ride No such luck, I'm on my own Hitch hiking on a road less traveled Just can't catch a break But I see a cliff ahead of me Seems to be the quickest way To get where I'm going If I could just take the leap There's the ledge Here I am Free falling into the unknown The easiest thing I've come to know Close my eyes Mesmerize Like I'm falling onto pillows Funny, 'cause hard is all I know Can't take the heat Can't handle the pressure Stressing out over the little things Every decision is unsure Anxiety to the fullest Frustration relinquished Head spinning like a twister Emotions at its steepest Feeling so distant So unappreciated Misunderstood by everyone Feel I should end it I am so numb Feel so trapped in my mind Who am I to anyone Only words I wanna say are "goodbye" There's the ledge Here I am So much hurt and pain building up Feels quicker this way, to end it all Close my eyes Mesmerize Like I'm falling onto pillows Funny, 'cause hard is all I know I'm on the edge No regrets Just want it to be over The build up's just so immense Think my last thoughts I just drop Simplest thing I've ever come across Hard is all I know, and ever got I feel so broken I am so lost I feel so forgotten Asphalt never looked so soft