Hard Is All I Know

I don't know what to do
This blade ain't workin' for me
Alcohol only makes it worse
I'm poppin' these pills like candy

I feel so unwanted
I am so lost
I feel so forgotten
Asphalt never looked so soft

Trying to find the light
But all I see is darkness
Can't seem to turn forward
But backwards I go, I'm hopeless
There's the ledge

Here I am
Take care everyone
I'm doing this 'cause I can
Close my eyes
Mesmerize
Like I'm falling onto pillows
Funny, 'cause hard is all I know

Never experienced softness
A rocks my pillow, road's my bed
No such thing as sweet dreams
For me, it's nightmare on elm street

It's a tough road alright
It hurts every time I go
I've tried to find ride
No such luck, I'm on my own

Hitch hiking on a road less traveled
Just can't catch a break
But I see a cliff ahead of me
Seems to be the quickest way
To get where I'm going
If I could just take the leap

There's the ledge
Here I am
Free falling into the unknown
The easiest thing I've come to know
Close my eyes
Mesmerize
Like I'm falling onto pillows
Funny, 'cause hard is all I know

Can't take the heat
Can't handle the pressure
Stressing out over the little things
Every decision is unsure

Anxiety to the fullest
Frustration relinquished
Head spinning like a twister
Emotions at its steepest

Feeling so distant
So unappreciated
Misunderstood by everyone
Feel I should end it

I am so numb
Feel so trapped in my mind
Who am I to anyone
Only words I wanna say are "goodbye"

There's the ledge
Here I am
So much hurt and pain building up
Feels quicker this way, to end it all
Close my eyes
Mesmerize
Like I'm falling onto pillows
Funny, 'cause hard is all I know

I'm on the edge
No regrets
Just want it to be over
The build up's just so immense
Think my last thoughts
I just drop
Simplest thing I've ever come across
Hard is all I know, and ever got

I feel so broken
I am so lost
I feel so forgotten
Asphalt never looked so soft

Comments

MGarman13

I wrote this a year or so ago. I created it around a line I had thought up almost a year prior, which was "Asphalt never looked so soft." Then I heard it in a song, not too long before I completed this, to my surprise. Oh well! But, this is not a reflection, however, on how I feel. It just came to me. =)

Antavia_Mason

Amazing!!!

MGarman13

Aw, thank you!!

Alicefyre

This is so beautiful!

MGarman13

Aww, you all are too kind. Thank you! =)

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