Has there ever been

Has there ever been a time when you were completly blank in the mind? I felt like that for awhile and I didn't know how to react. I tried to force something in my head and all the came were tears. I thought about how shitty I've been with one past relationship. I thought about how scared I am to fuck up my new relationship. He is perfect. I would never change him not matter the cause. Either of them. My J.A is better than B.S and I feel safe. . . in a matter of speaking. I never feel safe

Have you ever cut your wrist with a pencil? Just to see how deep the rock would penetrate skin. I used to think I would never be loved but now that I have it, I don't know what to feel. I hate having feelings because it shows weakness. It shows I'm vulnerable. I hate who I am

He asked why? In a sucicidal way?

Kind of. I don't like to go home where I feel unwanted

<For a friend... A.C>

Friends show the care when it's to late. . .

-TheLoverFool