A hate love

I used to say i love her, But was i real or was it lust? If it was love then we would be dating, But now am only counting my dates in a bar inn, Remembering she gave herself on me on the first date, And i was ready to jugde she was to cheap, Not knowing am the one all the trush in a heap, Just because she opened her hips, And i was ready to dig in, Not knowing all she did was because she loved me, Even when i posted other girls she was ready to beg “dont hurt me please”, But i was stupid not to listen to her pleads, Thinking she will never leave me coz am the coolest, Now am drinking my pain, With all my tears in vain, Coz the day she chose to cheat on me, She cheated for love and not sex like me, And thats when i lost her to another man who treats her better than me