Haunted

It always hurts come October I try to numb pain but I can't stay sober Your bittersweet flashbacks linger Like a shot a whiskey long after last call Though I climb higher I Ultimately give into the fall Does your absence still haunt me Or is it the ghost of the memories I drank so much I was trying to forget you All it did was misconstrue The agony never fades I lie to myself when I think its gone away