Have you ever had emotions

Have you ever had emotions With no words to describe them? Thoughts in your head That you feel could commit you? Have you ever felt emotions And yet, not felt emotions? How do you describe it? Have you ever felt full of hope Yet hopeless? Full of strength Yet weak? Desirable yet not, Loved yet not? How do you describe it? It's hard to never find any words Good enough to explain. To describe these thoughts and feelings Though you rack your brain. I'm tired of being The person I turned into. I'm tired of feeling the fear That I live with every day. I'm tired of feeling unnoticed In my tiny world of people. Tired of feeling lonely When I'm surrounded every day. Is there a way to describe this? Or am I insane?