He Broke Me and I'm Still Figuring It Out

One day I found myself looking deep into his eyes,

searching for the humanity that once showed through

Trying to remember the days his heart wasn’t webbed with fucking lies

And didn’t only care enough to hurt me “because I love you”

Never again will I let anyone’s love leave me feeling blue

And purple, and yellow-green, scared and alone

Slowly letting him drown me just “because I love you”

Opening my empty eyes to see I had lost my best friend, my home

The pain he left comes in waves, but somewhere inside me I found glue

Slowly I put myself back together with a quiet strength deep within

So to the next person I find myself saying “Because I love you”

I had to put myself together again so it will be harder to earn my trust than it has ever been  

One day the words will slip out of my mouth, and I’ll finally allow myself to feel

The love in which I learn how to feel loved without a bitter residue

I only know love to hurt, but one day it will heal

Because I love myself, Because I will love you

Because I love you,

Love will be patient, balanced, kind

Because you love me,

This time Love will not be blind